rockstonepebble

2012-01-01T23:44:00.001+08:00

stay strong dennis

2010-12-09T09:31:00.002+08:00

...

2010-12-01T09:07:00.002+08:00

it's the same time i wake up
the same bus i take
the same place i go through

yet things are completely different now

2010-11-30T09:36:00.004+08:00

it's been more than a year since my last post! it's so lifeless here guess no one will probably read this already.

actually i don't know what this is going to be about. i'm just feeling extremely lost and stressed. lost because i don't know what's going to happen to me a few years down the road and stressed because of the harsh and unavoidable reality that awaits. i keep asking myself why the environment at work is so superficial and scary unlike that in school. i mean i don't see a very big difference, we all work together and compete with each other in school too but in school everybody is so much more kind and nice. ah i just don't understand why it must be different. Being nice or not so nice, your job and responsibilities dont change, just continue what you do and things will still get done what right. it isn't like you must be bad to get things done.

ok i don't know what i'm blabbering actually sigh maybe i just don't know anything. i can't imagine having to be in a totally new and hostile environment soon or even now. the transition is so big i feel like i'm being crushed and i can't do anything about it.

like what people tell me, maybe i should enjoy these last, really last carefree days before all of these things crash on me.

but i guess no matter how hard it is i should adopt a positive attitude. ok JIAYOU -goes back to work-

2009-11-25T20:49:00.001+08:00

i'm so nervous about tomorrow! there's so much pressure. i hope everything goes smoothly ><

2009-08-10T01:23:00.002+08:00

i'm dead! i keep thinking of it now. i totally enjoyed myself but perhaps i shouldn't have went for it sigh. what now

2009-07-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

i've got a class 4 license yay!

2009-05-30T18:27:00.004+08:00

SAMI HYYPIA I'LL MISS HIM :'( sigh time is cruel

5 more weeks! driving is getting more tiring as the days pass. well i thought it was rather slack at first but it is really mentally exhausting having to drive/park for so long and for everyday. i wonder how my dad was able to sit in the car and drive and drive and drive when he takes us to malaysia. and its stressful because the instructors are rather harsh. the saddest thing is late saturday bookouts though haha. but i'll do my best so that i'll have a much easier time next time learning.

i almost certainly made it to db today had i reversed a few centimetres more into another rover X_X but whew i managed to stop in time, though i wasn't spared of the lecturing after that.

i think i should enjoy life more for now in case one day some accident happens and either i cease to live or i go db.

haha i'm feeling super bold my hands are itching to drive someone around now xD

2009-05-23T20:23:00.002+08:00

tell me again its over

2009-04-26T19:03:00.003+08:00

ahha i realised my time in slackmont is running out. then have to chiong again D:

2009-04-05T14:08:00.004+08:00

2 weeks in stagmont 5 more to go! as usual the tendency is to look forward to the end of a course but after that, how you wish it didnt end.

i could imagine being in my dad's shoes when he told me that only when he was nearing to his ord, he wished it didn't came so soon. because that's when he's almost completely grown up and independent to step into a complex society.

i think its really true. even when i have so long still before ord, i'm already starting to experience what he did.

2009-03-22T22:21:00.002+08:00

sigh i thought i would get into command school. ah this loserish feeling. sucks.

2009-03-08T14:38:00.002+08:00

3 more days to POPPPPPPP! then i can throw my cap (if it doesn't rain) haha.

2009-02-23T16:44:00.003+08:00

2 more weeks to POP!!! finally a break then before the going gets tougher. but for now it's confinement D:

2009-01-07T21:50:00.004+08:00

poof!

2008-12-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

i feel rather sad too when yaohui looked quite sad just now, probably over ns. i think nobody can understand how he feels unless they enlisted earlier than him. but on the other hand there are people like ben toh who are looking forward to ns which is a good thing for him haha. i hope i won't feel so sad when my turn comes.

but i keep getting the 'everything's over' feeling. haha it's true cos everyone's going separate ways and as we move on to things like ns, it's hard to stay together.

anyway i have a new favourite piece now it's called reason by s.e.n.s and i think it's a super emo piece!

2008-12-02T15:44:00.002+08:00

oh noooo i actually want kengwei's i love myself shirt haha.

there's somewhere i want to go but i can't
there's someone i want to see but i can't

2008-11-27T19:51:00.003+08:00

hello i'm back from class chalet!

i'm now terribly sunburnt, my legs are bruised here and there, mosquito bites everywhere and i'm super tired because of insufficient sleep. haha i look as though i just came back from some ns camp instead of chalet :S

the first day was nothing much other than cards, walking around downtown east and watching movie heh.

second day went to wild wild wet! there's the new U-shaped ride now since i last went and it's quite scary during the first two drops. ha but it was funny the way we screamed on purpose. and i think because christmas is coming, now there's also some imba machine spraying so much foam that can entirely cover our bodies and it made our eyes really hurt. but it was quite fun too although we were like overaged kids playing among all the small children haha. we spent most of our time on ularlar trying to take the perfect picture though. there were a few nice ones but sometimes the camera timing was bad and it wasn't able to capture everyone on the float. finally we managed to get a decent photo but it was really expensive ra.

then mr loy came for the bbq! spent the night chatting and playing cards with him. ahha we played hearts and for the first 5 games i got the black widow T.T really couldn't believe my luck! the scores were like 10 16 24 72 that kind. but somehow i hung on at 98! wade and wenq are evil they tried to kill me off because they were at around 70 by then and they didn't want to lose. i got some help from mr loy too who didn't want to kill me (yet). he wanted to make all 3 of us 90+ and then finish all of us at one go. hahaha but somehow i managed to survive and wade and wenq hit 100 instead. woa i felt like i won the game man. playing the last few games with 98 points is really can heart attack. i wondered how i survived hahaha!

then we went for night (morning) cycling! i was in charge of being the last. haha since i was the last and there was no pressure from behind and there were girls in front who couldn't cycle very fast, i could afford to lag a bit. so i learnt how to 'autocycle' and i did it HAHAHA. i feel like a very pro pro now hahahaha. actually it's rather easy, it's just about being brave to let go both hands. we went all the way to changi for dessert and we went to the playground at changi beach too. the uphills were tough but after that the downhill reward comes :D

the next day some guys went to the cage for soccer while the girls went shopping. omg the cage is seriously very nice. it's cooler indoors, much more spacious than normal streetcourt and the grass is really good for tackling. everyone there was so nice and friendly too even when we didn't know each other. haha the atmosphere is really good, with everyone smiling, helping one another up and applauding good efforts regardless of teams. haha it's rather far from home or i'll want to go there more frequently.

went for dinner before i went home while the rest stayed for one more night. oops was feeling really exhausted and had no extra shirt. looking forward to xyz chalet now!

now i randomly feel like watching the whole of star wars again especially ep 3. it is one of the rare movies that gives people the sense of desolation. sometimes you think darth vader is totally evil but i feel sorry for how he went to the dark side :(

2008-11-16T21:58:00.003+08:00

last paper on tuesday! but it feels as though everything's over already so i think i wouldn't feel exceptionally happy after tues too haha.

i've been slacking non-stop after econs essay. or rather i think actually i couldn't be bothered to study cos i felt quite sad for my alevels (including h3 which was super long ago but i've never really stopped worrying ): ). although most people found a's hard but it's kind of disappointing for me because my mind just went blank sometimes.

i just watched fantastic 4 on channel 5 haha. if i was a bad guy, i would really kill off all the good guys if i have the chance instead of talking so much and giving them time to cover for one another. haha but it's a movie and movies are usually of happy endings. i watched madagascar too! hahaha it's really funny i think it's really a good movie to watch after alevels. after watching it i felt like playing broken telephone line hahaha.

other than movies i've been playing pokemon! i'm so big already but i still find it fun haha. but sadly after elite 4 the rom got corrupted and it's all erased. grr my milotic haha. after that i went to run 2.4. shixian told me to push myself otherwise i'll always be stuck at the same timing. hahaha so i increased my speed slightly and after 1 km i was dead. need to regain fitness.

i've also packed my room! apparently the room looks very neat now although the table is still quite messy with physics notes, but if you were to open the cupboards and drawers hahaha it's still messiness xD i'm still addicted to fate of the gods. ah -smacks head- i should have joined band hahah

haha i've really been studying minimally. i guess i need to do some work already. jiayou to all the bio people too!

2008-10-31T20:24:00.005+08:00

JIAYOU EVERYONE :)

when is a door not a door? When it's ajar!

hahahaha i found this in the gp fact to fiction. i don't know if it's just me but i find it extremely funny. it's really lame if you think about it but somehow i just keep laughing haha.

hahaha and i went to invent more of such jokes too.

When is a sailor not a sailor
When is a buoy not a buoy
When is liverpool not liverpool

haha sigh. random.

2008-10-25T18:52:00.003+08:00

dennis says:
eh

You have just sent a nudge.

dennis says:
mine jan 8 school 1 haha
dennis says:
yours?
[koy] says:
same
[koy] says:
i received letter alr leh
dennis says:
omg we same camp ah
dennis says:
ya i just checked mailbox and received too
dennis says:
today right
[koy] says:
wad time are u?
dennis says:
2pm you?
[koy] says:
:|
[koy] says:
SAME!!!
[koy] says:
HAHAHAHA
dennis says:
LOL
dennis says:
HAHAHA -celebrates-
[koy] says:
YAY!!! :D
dennis says:
LOL
[koy] says:
YAY GOT FRIEND!
dennis says:
HAHAHAHA
[koy] says:
YAY
dennis says:
omg damn exciting
dennis says:
hahahaha ns not scary now
koy] says:
hahaha yay celebrate!
[koy] says:
hahaha yup!
dennis says:
HAHAHAHA

dennis says:
aiya actually.
dennis says:
later you apply psc then zhong4
dennis says:
also no use
dennis says:
eh no
dennis says:
psc still need go bmt HAHAHA
dennis says:
ok i'm happy now HAHA

2008-10-06T20:49:00.004+08:00

dennis says:
anyway hotmail's down right?
[koy] says:
oooh u cant open ur emails oso?
[koy] says:
PHEWWW i thought im the only weirdo
dennis says:
lol
dennis says:
everyone also
[koy] says:
hahaha YAY!
dennis says:
except for those who use google chrome thing
dennis says:
hahaha actually even if you cannot open, you're still weirdo :D
[koy] says:
chrome? :-O
[koy] says:
chromium?
dennis says:
HAHAHAHAH

[koy] says:
Cr3+ is green
[koy] says:
CrO4 2- is yellow
[koy] says:
Cr2O7 2- is orange
[koy] says:
YAY!

hahahahaha :D

i'm addicted to fate of the gods and mountain of dragons.

2008-09-13T00:22:00.012+08:00

:')

2008-09-11T21:14:00.003+08:00

sigh i'm super sian-ed.

gp die
econs IR
maths no good
chem no good
phy IR

wth i think i'm possibly the only person with 2 IRs in just 4 days. and for totally silly and trivial reasons. fortunately or unfortunately it's prelims.

but then again what a miserable week! just gets more and more sian everyday instead of the usual happiness after a paper. ah curse my luck. but it's ok i've a clear conscience anyway.

ahha actually i'm not really irritated by the IRs but for the reasons i got them instead. but nvm life goes on! i'm quite happy ranting about it on msn too hahaha xD

2008-08-16T16:25:00.004+08:00

grah!! this is to release the emotional woes of studying inorganic chem. i've barely started but it's testing my sanity already!! T.T

#!?<>"@#$%^!@*&*() RARARAAAAAAAA!!!

2008-08-06T00:31:00.003+08:00

i can't believe i'm playing erhu at this hour -.-
SHENGYU i want to murder you HAHA RAHHHHHHHHH :@@

haha my erhu's been collecting dust for the past 2 months anyway. but still!! RAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

2008-07-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

my com is repaired! finally haha.

anyway, class outing! BANG IS SUPER FUN!! hahaha my hands are still itching i wish i could play now. RAH!!! although i've had early deaths which made it a little bit not fun but still it's really nice. my deaths were like sigh. both by the dynamite and the probability of getting it is so low! but i managed to get it twice still. grrr next time i must get my hands on that sid ketchum who's like really unkillable hahaha.

haha played some other games too. ah it's so fun. actually i would rather dao batman and play HAHA. haha nvm i'm looking forward to batman tmr too.

ah. this is bad i'm slacking too much. prelims start on week 10 tuesday!! crazy man.

bang bang bang

2008-07-11T20:54:00.003+08:00

HAHA out of sleepiness i actually posted this post on my class blog instead of here initially.

no rugby today! and i shrunk during height and weight today. weird haha. haha i think 65 people just like to run about so we played freeze and melt again! you know it's actually quite chaotic when the whole class is in the basketball court area behaving like crazy people running in all directions hahaha!

anyway i finally listened to concert songs! i think shuimo is a very nice song actually. i guess i didn't realise that because for the whole song i was just playing triplets. haha and of course other songs are nice too! i like zouxikou's sad sad part too heh nice.

2008-07-04T19:53:00.002+08:00

hahaha this is just a random post to say that rugby is FUN! HAHAHA yes pe was super fun though the grass was wet.

not those rough rugby though. today was more of playing freeze and melt, which is probably why it's fun. ah primary school times hahaha xD

hahaha i dunno why but i just laugh like crazy especially if my team is losing! and the 3 of us lost all our games so i really laughed like mad hahaha.

the new teacher also had a game which was about getting into groups of the number he says, also very fun! hahaha it's really quite a clever game to see who your true friends are :P

2008-05-15T20:22:00.018+08:00

HAHA the bass is D:

i suddenly felt like adding on after reading hannah's post! hm actually i don't know what exactly to say but i'm really thankful and proud of xyz and we shall jiayou for czardas!

i love HCCOXYZ. especially 0708 :)

2008-05-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

hahahahahaha i just finished up the morning announcement stuff and kengwei says: LOL not bad

hahaha so happy! it's been some time since someone said not bad to me hahahaha though the spoof thing wasn't by me.

i really think it's quite good though. nvm soon i shall see. but i wonder if such announcements are that effective because people wouldn't go if they're not interested and those who're interested will surely go.

hm anyway i can't wait.

i'd rather be a derby player than a united reserve.

2008-04-30T22:30:00.007+08:00

haha this is a post for the sake of posting. hm it feels weird there's no more ah wang! so cool, i also want to go happy planet haha.

hm friday's my exam! still doesn't feel like it though. haha and i just confused alot of people with some funny entropy problem hahaha. it's all because at first i thought there was something wrong with the notes but since no one asked anything, i presumed there was no problem with the notes, just that i didn't understand them. but today i finally asked and i managed to confuse so many people hahaha.

sigh i hope i can pass. don't want another email telling me i failed or what. especially this its the heaviest and last one left >< hm i'll endure! for all the nice people who're with me telling me to jiayou and concentrate and i can do it. without whom i'll be in a worse shape to study.

haha anyway i watched on youtube music of the night at the guitar concert! heh and i remember that time i heard band play it late in the night.. ahh can melt.

and i suddenly feel like saying that i love zhonghu! haha random

ok i shall go sleep le. i'll watch liverpool if i can wake up, although they'll probably lose.

hm there are some tiger beer advertisements at bus stops.. so far i've seen 'if winning isn't everything, why do people keep score' and 'you're either on top or.. who cares?' haha who cares.. i guess sadly it's true to some extent.

they say, if you keep touching the mimosa, it'll never open again

2008-03-23T19:15:00.004+08:00

oh no it's the big four playing! do i miss it. how how howwww. hm i think i'll study as much as i can now then go watch later and hopefully not die tomorrow. rah i hope liverpool wins.

anyway physics is hall row 2 again which means i'll be at some dark corner again doing the paper. but i guess nvm i'll just look forward to after the paper.

poof

2008-03-14T18:43:00.019+08:00

while studying, i saw the wooden thing (i don't know what it is called ><) xyz seniors painted and gave to us

then of course i failed to resume mugging. heh i started reading their notes :)

nice nice xD

anyway physics is hall row 2 again which means i'll be at some dark corner again doing the paper. hmm but nvm i'll just look forward to after the paper!

2008-03-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

haha today was super tiring but funny!

oh man ct session was hilarious. just cannot stop laughing whenever i think of that song! especially the choir version and the got accompaniment version.

and even better. the techno version hahahahahahahahahaha

2008-03-04T20:07:00.002+08:00

sigh i'm gonna fail. not that i never fail before but this is like 10% ouch. and i really should have concentrated better.

anyway i heard friday will be the release of results :(

i think in just one day i drew hundreds of squares! i really cannot control my mind :(

if i could i would just sleep.

2008-03-02T18:20:00.004+08:00

29 feb is once every four years
but everyday is once a lifetime :D

hoho i hope i survive next week >< but then soon will block test again sigh.

nvm there're still things to look forward too! wahahaha like i wonder if sx will like our pokemon masterpiece heh

2008-02-23T17:19:00.005+08:00

i have no people skills no leadership no confidence no business skills no talent no passion in anything no nothing.

i like to be a teacher but those that i teach fail >< and i'm quite scared about pw and chinese results.

sigh. i wonder what will happen to me after this year. which will be very soon ><

ah :(

2008-02-21T20:41:00.003+08:00

sigh.

2008-02-16T12:35:00.004+08:00

yesterday's soccer and session outside mph...
really haven't laughed so much for a long time.

i don't need no secrets

2008-02-14T22:33:00.003+08:00

i'm tired! but happy haha :D happy friendship day! (:

2008-01-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

i want to be the angel that gives and forgives
and brings happiness to the world

haha i know. although it's quite impossible :)

anyway today has been a great day! haha i'm so heartened there's liyi and weekian willing to try zhonghu! though it may not be confirmed haha. hmm i hope they do well for o levels! :D lalala now i'm super encouraged to be a good senior to repay their willingness to do what others don't want to hoho :D

haha it's so discouraging when no one wants to be in zhonghu because there aren't lots of melody, but i think we shouldn't mind or worse, despise people playing it :S it's just the stereotype that zhonghu people are lousiest, but it's not true! ok maybe it is. sigh but when there is melody, i think zhonghu makes the richest and mellow-est music!

haha but yup it's unpopular because everyone wants to stand out and play melody everytime, which is normal and i don't blame them hoho.

hm then i had to rush for lab and couldn't join choir for practice :( lab is so tiring! 5 solutions to titrate and each one had to do two or three times cos of the consistency thing! plus silly mistakes like forgetting to add indicator which led to me still waiting for the end point when the conical flask was almost going to be half full alr!

haha tiring! but i got to know some nice friends! happy happy :D

2008-01-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

i want to be the angel that gives and forgives
and brings happiness to the world

haha i know. although it's quite impossible :)

2008-01-20T15:17:00.000+08:00

hush

2008-01-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

sheer determination

the world always looks brighter
from behind a smile :D

smile everyone! xD

2008-01-13T15:20:00.000+08:00

when i thought i would eat my words.
came a nice person who believes in my smile.
and guess what.
you've got to believe it to see it (:

hahaha. yup i'm so thankful.

2008-01-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

hahaha from tmr onwards something will happen to me :P

it's magic

haha ok anyway a few minutes ago...

yamhuo - OBK! says:
erm i think i'm quite fake
yamhuo - OBK! says:
like i dont know leh
yamhuo - OBK! says:
i treat diff people differently sometimes
yamhuo - OBK! says:
i try not to .. but i dont really know how
dennis says:
haha aiya everyone is sure to be fake to some extent. but really fake people wont say they're fake la
dennis says:
so i think i'm quite fake too
dennis says:
HAHAHAHAHAH -_- xD

2008-01-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

this is so nice haha. i like the singer's name too it's like McLaughing

So Close - Jon McLaughlin

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

hai ok back to school.

2007-12-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

(as usual) i shall get suaned by man u fans again! hm it's actually only kengwei. yup i'm already prepared le haha yes

korea was fun! but i missed singapore too. i want to eat lots of singapore food now yum yum! :P

hm i think the best parts were skiing, snowing and going to the theme park :D hm i shall not upload the pictures oops

skiing is really hard! or maybe just for me. i feel really really bad cos for the whole activity i crashed into many many people or somehow disturbed them from skiing peacefully hahaha oops. it's really irritating cos i always xing xing ku ku climb up the slope and before i can prepare myself i'll start to slide down uncontrollably. then it gets faster and faster and when i see someone in front of me i can't do anything! then will crash and make people irritated :S otherwise the people will have to keep evading me which is quite irritating too hahaha.

i thought later i got better but actually i think it was because i was sliding slowly on level ground because too tired to keep climbing le :S tiring but i think skiing is fun! :D :D

the day after was everland theme park! hahaha i took a roller coaster ride and stopped. hmm yes then for the rest of the day the world was revolving around me. abit shu fu ><

hmm then there was a xiao dong wu show which is very nice. haha the animals there are all very cute and small and really clever and obedient de :D :D hahaha got parrots that can sing, piglets, squirrels, puppies and lots more! :P there was also another park with big animals! like lions and tigers and ligers. giraffes and elephants and BEARS! hahaha the bear stands as tall as the bus! super big lol!

hm then snowing! throughout the trip there was snow but no snowing until the very last day! haha i remember i was super disappointed cos i thought i wouldnt see snowing le, then on the last night it actually snowed! hahahahaha everyone was super happy like crazy and jumping around, i think the people there thought we siao! haha cos there snowing is like normal to them!

haha it was just a small snow but i think snowing and the snowflakes super nice! hohoho i'm very very happy to have seen a small snow already! :D :D

haha ok that's about it. oh i met adeline in an orchard too hahaha so coincidental

hm now that i'm back i think i'm going to die because i haven't done alot of homework!

hahaha but christmas is coming! HOHOHO -sings let it snow- :D :D

2007-11-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

HEH i earned my first piece of salary this holidays xD

unfortunately the opportunity cost was xyz outing (or fortunately cos SOMEONE would have said i mug bowling hahaha)

hahaha anyway teaching is fun! you feel really good helping people haha.

er but bowling is fun too hahaha! ok both are fun la. haha random.

anyway i suddenly thought of something last time. when hongshen will 'convince' me to switch instruments with him on our way home. hahahaha and the pipa is really really heavy la. on the other hand erhu is really really light! i guess maybe i shouldn't not feel (should feel) like carrying my erhu here and there in the future hahaha.

hahaha this post is really random.

2007-11-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

hohoho co outing was fun fun! i was really happy cos it has been really long since i was able to swim or play soccer or cycle or just run around! haha ok actually it's just a fortnight. i should just be more careful in future xD

hm the only bad thing was that kengwei and qiyu lost their valuables. poor them >< i'll throw sand at the thieves if i get them! hahahaha! :P

hohoho i'm eh.. indescribably happy! hahaha. dennis is happy and happy is good. therefore dennis is good! hahahahaha :D

2007-10-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

hahahahahaha i'm super happy today!

all because of a card! ahem ahem hahahahahahahaha xD

haha random.

2007-10-03T20:33:00.001+08:00

under the sea!

hohohoho :D

2007-10-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

hohohoho happy children's day! :P

2007-09-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

wahahaha i suddenly thought of this and decided to blog abt it!

eh qiyu and i were studying at national library and we felt bored! oh man super random and funny la xD

HAHAHA we began talking about birthdays, then dunno why qiyu brought the co contact list, so he took it out and we checked out everyone's birthdays!

me: eh, i didn't know shiao hong's birthday's in october!
qiyu: eh ya hor i also dunno leh!
...
eh wait la, look carefully is
ho shao hsien not ho shiao hong!

HAHAHA then we went shaohsien shiaohong shaohsien shiaohong and began to discuss the similarities between shaohsien and shiaohong!

random random xD

heh oops jiayou mugging everyone! esp the seniors! :D :D

anyway co rocks! hahahahahaha hannah is so smart to cut cut the cake into exactly 12 pieces la! :D

2007-08-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

I wanna be the very best
like no one ever was
To catch them is my real test
to train them is my cause
I will travel across the land
searching far and wide
Each Pokemon to understand
the power that's inside

Pokemon gotta catch 'em all!
I know it's my destiny
Pokemon! oh..you're my best friend
in a world we must defend
Pokemon gotta catch 'em all!
Our courage will pull us through
You teach me and I'll teach you!
Pokemon!
Gotta Catch 'Em All! Gotta Catch 'Em All!
Pokemon!

wahaha quick! sing and get high! xD

2007-07-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

ok post!

blocks gg ><

hoho ok don't care le. about hide and seek today! hahaha super spastic la but fun fun xD next time must play play again in some other funny places!

heh went to watch lionel POSE on stage today HAHA xD yup then after that took a nice nice walk around bukit panjang and had dessert. yummy mango sunshine!

hm then yes we played hide and seek in the library and harvey norman. HAHA i'm pro ok! aye, just that got some people sabo me and tell my whereabouts hor! :P super funny la, the whole library super quiet except for us laughing like mad HEH. super malu la, esp when i pretending to read the newspaper, everybody stared at me! oops xD hmm then we went to harvey norman! wahaha super fun there, got lots of tvs and beds and refrigerators to hide around! HEH next time must play play again :P :P

then we had dinner! lionel and i shared a chicken xD woa first time i eat until hands so oily, but it was quite nice! xD

yea ok! THANK YOU ~~lionel~~ poser xD sx and szuan for the nice nice youth day (: and sx for the kangaroo too haha

happy happy

soccer rocks. and i don't care. goal 2 tmr! hope it's nice heh (:

2007-06-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

rahhh lol.

ok random post to make the previous post vanish heh xD

jia you studying everyone! :D

hoho mr bean rocks! happy happy xD

2007-06-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

woa i was totally freaked out ytd. when there was this video with criss angel inside who would get your name and handphone number spot on. at first he was advertising abt smth la, so i daoed and continued chatting with qiyu. yup and i was typing to him smth like the guy in the video where got read my mind de.

THEN from the speakers came 'dennis?'

yes it was so scary that i went to pause that video and went HUH?! did he just say dennis or what. and he continued telling me my number. totally siao! >< yup i got so flabbergasted till qiyu told me the vid was custom-made -_- but still, the way that guy said 'dennis?' was really really uh stupefying. and it makes your heart rate accelerate after that.

anyway i think sheng's very nice (:

ok it's really really nice. and i think all the songs qiyu and i played are all super nice too! xD

i happened to listen to top of the world today! hah and i remembered i had this music book last time when i was small, then i just fell in love with the song once i heard it. very often i would just open the music book and flip to the top of the world page and sing sing the song, then will become happy happy! heh hope tmr's famine camp will be fun fun!

time washes

2007-06-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

perhaps.

i should just start studying.

2007-05-28T00:06:00.001+08:00

when someone's happy, another's crying.

great for one side. hm but i guess we should spare a thought for the opposite too ><

i could feel that disappointment and anguish. though it didn't really mattered to me.

hoho but life goes on (:

2007-05-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why. how could i.

ah!!!

-bangs my head on the wall-

2007-05-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

hm it really sucks to lose in a final. but there has to be a winner. the efforts of the other then goes poof.

tmr. all or nothing. i'm scared.

2007-05-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

-despairs after seeing chinese compre-

omg the chinese compre is so EASY. i wanna tear the book up. on further thoughts, friday is a day too good for this.

so. dao -_-

2007-05-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

hai. loser ><

now and forever ):

2007-05-06T16:26:00.000+08:00

and all of a sudden i feel scared.

after thursday

no ):

go HCCO (:

2007-05-02T02:39:00.000+08:00

-_- i finished pi. at the expense of studying for chem. it better be well done hai.

ggnore chem test later haven't study chemical bonding yet.

jiayou hcco! 8 more days!

jiayou liverpool!

silence is beautiful

2007-04-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

ha i'm blogging here and there's a physics test i'll fail tmr xD

neh i've given up on it la. no time!! it was like i wanted to study this morning then yongjie asked me to play soccer. i said no, admired the cheem notes a while and decided to go for soccer instead -_- and now i'm here! good luck dennis xD

but soccer was fun fun xD though only got me qiyu yongjie support liverpool! like everyone who joined was asked 'support liverpool? no then score that side -points to three of us-'
poor people, totally outnumbered!

yongjie!! rahhh keeps calling me *****. since sec 1 -_-. and today he had the inspiration again. "me into qiyu***" omg only he can think of such things hahaha xD

then we met hcico conductor in sch! and yongjie got so excited. that he shouted WENCAI! LOL like he was a very good friend of the conductor. and yongjie actually defended himself that he forgot to add a huang in front. that's even more rude can hahahaha xD

jiayou hcco! xD i love xyz! heh esp my batch! practise practise practise! it's quite tiring but fun fun xD amazing how we've been practising and having dinner together for the past consecutive dunno how many days le! xP

heh oh and the moon these few days super happy! (:

silence is beautiful
hush

2007-04-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

was having chem tutorial when the teacher asked who can prove mathematically the bond angle is 109.5 degrees for tetrahedral compounds.

of course, i was too excited after getting back maths test earlier and the first thing i thought of - mi! i was bored anyway.

Let P(n) be the proposition "bond angle for CH4 = 109.5 degrees"
LHS of P(1) = bo(1)d a(1)gle for CH4

of course that was only meant to be a joke for myself but somehow it was shown to people and everyone laughed like mad. except for the teacher of course oops xD

did napfa test yesterday. rahhh it was SUPPOSEDLY next week. of course i was totally unprepared la, and the first 100m was omg i'm like so tired already?! managed to finish it anyway but my legs are dead xD

i'm dead also! oh man A LEVELS spa. i messed the whole thing up.

it's such a shame

2007-04-05T06:08:00.000+08:00

hcico! if someone were to be blamed it had to be your seniors anyway! but it's really ok as long as you've tried your best! (:

heh. after hearing so much unpleasant things about syf, post!

i joined hcico 4 years ago cos i was totally impressed by them during some music appreciation performance. i thought dizi was cool but got into xianyue instead. ahha yongjie should be super happy i didn't get into dizi! xP

to me co is where i can make music and alot of good friends! syf really didn't mattered to me. i was like just happy for a moment, for all the hard work paid off when we got gwh in 2005. to me syf is something not important at all la. co not = syf!! syf's eh... something like an exam! fail fail lor lol.

same if i have a choice, i wouldn't take any exams for a certificate. i was never in favour of taking grade exams. maybe it matters to some people but for me i really don't care. no need to have a cert that shows your grade to tell others you know how to play erhu de xD

ahha and for psle i was reading tintin before the maths paper i remembered xD then somehow i managed to score exactly the cut off point to enter hci which i so totally don't deserve to. and i didn't care about the higher chinese exam too, which was why i PASSED la xD but for a levels i think quite impt leh, concerns what i can do when i grow up! cannot play play heh.

heh ok back to syf! yup who doesn't want to do well and get gwh! but you all tried your best, can le! honestly i very proud and happy le leh, gold is nothing to be ashamed about! and surely there won't be any co getting gwh for every syf too!

so yup, not only syf, everything else also no need to be so concerned about winning or losing! just play like any usual performance! only like that then can bring the best music out! jiayou hcico! =D

be content! optimism! xD

to those who xing zai le huo when hcico was awarded gold, i think that's really unnecessary! we may be rivals in competition but all of us are ultimately from co! it's quite sad la :S

heh had xyz outing and watched mr bean! wow and bean really rocks. i also want to bring happiness and laughter to everyone too, like mr bean! xD

anyway this's my 100th post. random HAHA

a smile works more than wonders

2007-03-22T19:23:00.000+08:00

post!

woa finally the com became guai so that i can access blogs. FINALLY. like the whole of last month everyone's blogs were a blank page -_-

been tagging on everyone's board like i've never did for a long time. which is true la. sorry for not updating or replying tags! my blog is like so dead le!

heh i dunno whether running for council was the right choice! but jiayou jiayou! co rocks no matter what! i love xyz! =D

2007-02-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

heh happy cny! hope this year everything will go smoothly xD

hong bao na lai! xD

2007-02-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahah

i actually took so long to understand.

2007-01-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

fac cip was fun!

heh was kind of tiring la, waking up early on sunday morning. but nvm la those poor people don't even have money to celebrate cny!

what we did was just knocking on doors and encouraging residents to donate their old stuff like clothes or what to the poor!

everytime keep repeating the same thing very sian! and some people don't even listen. they think you're some salesman or what then just slam the door on you before you can explain! there was even one who locked the door when we knock -_- and some of them look very angry la, cos 9 am we knock their door to tell them something they don't care :S

then there was this old ah ma who doesn't understand chinese and wanted me to speak hokkien. then i was like very slow and will mix some chinese and english with hokkien, until the neighbour came and help me tell the ah ma! chao malu la xD but i think the funniest part is when the residents got dogs! once you knock they'll rush to the door and bark like mad!

liverpool pwns muahahahaha

it matters actually. but so what. i'll cherish more without having.

2007-01-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

i'm so dead. just the beginning and i don't understand at all what the lecturers are talking about.

even after through the notes before and after lecture over and over again leh.

it's only me. everyone else is super mug and clever la. hai -_-

unlimited human wants. a moment of ecstasy before casting it aside for new desires. which is the reason i tell myself so what. i'll cherish more without it.

2007-01-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

why. am i in another disappointment so familiar when i wasn't even expecting much in the first place.

but you can continue for all you want cos i won't die.

i'm brave.

played to our heart's content yesterday. it's probably going to be the last time before all the mugging comes in.

tennis at jiehao's house. not first time, but still amateurs. so after getting bored picking up balls around and outside the tennis courts we decided to be stupid. yea you can see tennis balls flying all over, to the neighbouring tennis court, even outside onto the sleeping security guard. only for him to wake up to see us on the floor in hysterics. and he was so angry that he refused to opened the games room for us later.

after much apologies and assurance that we won't throw pool balls like tennis balls around, we finally got to play! though it was like half an hour gone thanks to our stupidity -_- and we only played a while before the security guard came and chase us away. so we went to play winning eleven, and i rock with liverpool xD

sat down and lamented about our new classes. though we all were laughing at the stories of our classes but it was so obvious everyone was damn sad. i miss 4i. our clique only got exceptionally strong towards the end of last year and we were so happy when the isp had all of us in the same class. in the end we are all alone now, and neither of us like our classes.

and we had to be chased out of the house by jiehao. can't believe we chatted the whole afternoon and night.

maybe there're worse classes out there. i'm starting to accept my class. do i have a choice anyway -_-

2007-01-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

why. am i in another disappointment so familiar when i wasn't even expecting much in the first place.

but you can continue for all you want cos i won't die.

i'm brave.

2007-01-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

ah my class ):

isn't it unfair of life. and always i have to tell myself i'm not the only one in this.

ok so we're all in chinatowns. i should have expected this when i chose pcme.
but then i didn't expect prcs here to be so different zz.

so my class is special huh, how can there be 7 boys and 19 girls. and i came to the conclusion that it'll be hard to get a good friend in this class cos no one likes soccer?! NO ONE AT ALL?! ispark people are so hard to get along with unless you're from ispark too -_-

soccer. at least, there's the teacher. when i said i love liverpool, he said sorry i'm a man u fan. and you know, liverpool and man u fans naturally don't go well with each other. like tanhy last year. i wonder if he really cares about us, or me because i'm a liverpool fan. i sent him an email 3 months ago politely asking where 4i's health booklets were because apparently the school lost them. and if it wasn't for walking past him today, i don't think i could ever get an answer. he stopped me and told me the health booklets cannot find. obviously he read my email, and that it would kill him to reply. to a liverpool fan.

so the teacher, i wondered if he had started to pick on me, called me randomly and asked why i chose pcme.

cos i've no idea what i'm gonna do when i grow up, so pcme gives me most options, though i'm regretting now.
he: there should be an ambition, you all should have an idea of what you want to be in the future. and not choose pcme because everyone chooses it.

whether it was targetted at me, he certainly he didn't sound friendly. omg it's just the first day in class. what's wrong being a liverpool fan?!

i want to change class! pon! Zz.

2007-01-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

incidentally i was looking at the nightsky when something like a green meteor flew past. haiya i dunno if it is cos it was so big and near to us. and are meteors green in colour =X looked to me like it was falling. poor star la.

last time i saw was in the middle of the night. somehow i woke up for a moment and saw it. quite blur without my specs but then how come they're so different one.

beats me. but this time i not so blur like last time forget to make wish xD

ahahaha lionel's joke so funny, i don't really feel that sad for now. thanks eh =D

2007-01-07T16:53:00.000+08:00

alright shixian. but actually since everyone's blogging about the same orientation, nothing fresh.

oh i miss high school. the auditorium seats are cushioned. the classrooms are air-conditioned. the canteen is larger. and i find the jc quite dark and deserted in some places.

ok the times in the auditorium last week were quite boring, and there were not enough seats. so can imagine every assembly will have people on the steps. but some videos they showed us were really very touching =) huangcheng is like very special, it's a drama? or what. i still dunno zz.

anyway, OG17! heh. except for collecting money for the pe shirts, i think overall our group rocks la, though most of the people very inactive one. grr my ten dollars. TEN :(

as expected, ruiyan and sometimes william were so stubborn to not participate in the games. sikai and jialin only came on friday. renyang will vanish and suddenly pop out when it's time to go home -_-

heh the slippery slope very fun, so lucky when it's my turn we changed to the less steep slope, that one already very difficult and we were told to keep to the sides that were not that slippery. the seniors were chao evil, keep splashing water on us at the top, soap water in the eyes super painful la. and they purposely pour soap once they see you moving, i didn't know cos i couldn't see without specs! at the top they poured a whole bucket of water. grr but it was very nice la, with everyone cheering for you :) so we made it!

the caterpillar game super funny, we spoilt the dummy la hahaha! then the carrot orange game chao violent la. keep pushing and kicking, but i never play cos at the slippery slope stupid jiankai say i weak when he crashed into me and i fell down trying to stop him leh hahaha xD

then friday we played the flour game, and everyone was cheating la, just take the sweet straight to the back hahaha. but we cheat also never win :( then had to do the super disgusting forfeit la, doing pushups with a girl under you yucks. next was the scissors paper stone game! grr szu an don't be so happy la! i next time sure win you and beat your hand until red red HAHA :P

hahaha then the balloon game right. haven't even start jiankai go and make one of my balloons burst. we were same group la wt hahaha and i wasn't allowed to take one more! not fair :| in the end there wasn't enough time for us to play the mud game! it looks very fun la, but abit disgusting la, so aiya, forget it.

at night went to mac! but hengjie never turn up in the end, so we played among ourselves xD

now its orientation with our class, heh if it doesn't change, i think got alot of 4i people in our class. so shixian can have fun mugging! :P

i didn't expect much anyway

2007-01-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

uh, hope tmr will be fun xD

2006-12-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

ruiyan and sikai are with me in the orientation group. of all people? like obs also got cmf with me. and in perth the whole 4i was together except three including me. maf worse, got mark and enhao. oh and SZU AN LOL.

that is if that group thing is really for orientation, but what else is it for if it isn't -_- what a start to jc.

but i guess i've to accept it. that's life isn't it. anyway, i'm so glad to have survived this month.

belinda
learnt from and helped her most. but frankly, i can't stand her kiasu-ness. she has such a passion for stuff to do that tells her not to go home without completing that day's work even if it is 9pm with the air-con off and all the cockroaches starting to appear. while working she will like scare herself and suddenly say something like tomorrow even more, must do until 10pm -_-
uh so yea she's damn dutiful la, can finish her own work but cannot help others one. she actually cried when a colleague gave her some contracts to check. that day got power failure so alot of things never do, like everyone wants to go home early right, dunno why she so reluctant to help abit. not like she not free anyway, I was doing her work.
ha but she's very funny. once i was asked to search for some shareholder given his ic number. she said let her do it, so i looked on as she matches the ic number one by one in the ten page msword file. i was like, stunned?

belinda you know how to find or not? control f?
she: huh, wait. you know huh, okok you do la.

tah-dah and so i did it. coincidentally that guy was right at the last page, imagine her browsing through all ten pages of the ic number.

she: oh so this is how you do it, so clever! the stupid bryan never teach me!

-_-

but after all she's quite nice la, i'm very touched she gave me a tray of dark chocolates yesterday. at first glance it looked like the damn ex prestat 1-kitkat-sized bar chocolate for $14 one, but actually no. it's the thought that counts anyway

jelvis
sit beside him every 5 minutes can hear him scold some sort of vulgarities. and he's quite lazy also, like take a whole afternoon to patch some stuff which can be done in less than half an hour. he'll eat peanuts, chat on the office phone, msn... reminds me of how he made me speechless by asking some unknown girl through msn to send him sexy pictures of herself.

very unhelpful also, you help him he never thank you one leh! instead he will say something like so little only or what. really want to box him sometimes la! got one time he still ask me want to smoke or not zz.

last day i bought some peanuts for him, and HE ACTUALLY THANKED ME. wow, i feel so. great xD

ambross, daryl
great buddies la, time flies chatting with them on the train cos they live in choa chu kang too. shared with me lots of experiences of everything under the sun. quite funny la, then we'll also gossip about colleagues hahaha oops. they're new also, only joined the company some time before i did xD

betty
i don't know but she goes on leave very often, and is like those kind of long weekends one, so we'll have alot of things to do. once i had half day and i think she wanted to make full use of my presence, so i was forced to help her before i leave.
ah and she's super greedy, always eat alot one, she'll be the first to go for lunch! hahaha cos now christmas then alot of cakes and parties, she'll snatch the food one! i wanted to eat fishball but no more already.
but she's quite ok la, only that when she's busy you ask her something you'll get scolding or don't know as reply even if she clearly knows.

poh ling
completely like betty! when she's busy she will like push something to another person and say its not her scope of job, and she ALWAYS wins by saying i don't care. really don't care leh, whenever there's a phone call and she senses it's work, she ignores it. her table's super messy too, only she can find what she wants la.

i wonder if they're really that busy, even talk to me also talk so fast that i will reply with huh? and then they'll say forget it. i hao xin go ask them what again and get scolding. sometimes i really very angry la. once she handed a form to me and said 'eight'. i was like huh? and before i could say anything she vanished. i thought for damn long then i realised she meant eight storey. so much diff la! like saying another word will kill her like that, kill so many of my brain cells!

then still got who. bryan eh quite helpful la. collie isn't at her table for most of the times. ryan doesn't talk the whole day at all. ash and katherine are like robots repeating what they say on the phone to shareholders. cecilia doesn't talk too.

yea i'm glad it's over, but school's reopening! i haven't spent a day out of office or school! bought myself some things i've always longed to have. with my own money. MINE muahaha xD

went to co chalet yesterday! ha very long never see and chat with co people le. ate, chatted and played in the arcade the whole night. that basketball game damn addictive la, play and play and play. then guess what. there WEREN'T anymore trains or buses. cool to be stuck at pasir ris in the middle of the night huh, tired and dying of thirst. sx chao rich take cab home WITHOUT ME. nah i decided a cab was too ex and stayed over at kengwei's house instead together with hongshen. haha hongshen dyed his hair like pai kia even police ask him for his ic.

woa didn't sleep much. can't believe i fell asleep while getting a haircut just now. yea liverpool won, gonna sleep already! heh happy 2007 to everyone in advance! hope it'll be a great year xD

thanks to kengwei for the one night accomodation :)
thanks to qiyu and koymin for the wallet from china :)
thanks to hcico for the gifts :)

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

2006-12-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

merry christmas! hohoho! xD

2006-12-02T13:28:00.000+08:00

yea i'm back, and i shall blog about the trip IF i feel like it hehe xD

i'm kind of adopting the shixian attitude when it comes to blogging. don't feel like blogging and there's no need to. i realized my previous entries are all between 1-5 sentences and have at least 10 days buffer time. worst of all, i choose to write instead of type.

anyway, the trip was indescribably nice la. i should feel very blessed comparing myself to the natives, but sometimes simple life is the best.

aiyoh, really no point blogging so much lol.

liverpool jia you!

2006-11-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

flying off to china tmr, bye!

2006-11-03T09:37:00.000+08:00

lazy or not, i think there's no nicer picture. therefore my blog will stay the way it is.
and i'm not gonna blog often (:

2006-10-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yea today's the first time ever i managed to finish the chinese papers on time. i hope my essay and summary didn't go out of point :S but who cares.

it's time to say goodbye ):

2006-10-29T01:48:00.000+08:00

28/10

we did it :)

hm i'll miss hcico. wish them all the best for syf next year.

what an evening. and thanks for the presents!

higher chinese tmr :S

2006-10-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

more often than not, we learn how important things are to us only when we're about to lose them.

whew chiong-ed for the last train after batch dinner. if not i'm probably sleepwalking my way home now.

To 4i'06 (those few):

i love batch dinner, the part when we came together singing. think i've never ever sang so loudly. or maybe i just needed to shout to let out everything. but as we sang i just felt like crying. the feeling is indescribable la. beautiful with a tinge of sadness?

how come no one else cried. am i too soft or what. but as i cried i didn't think i really feel sad la. the ups and downs, the times we had just ran through my mind. the tears just show how important you all are to me. i'm happy that you all know. i'm really happy, because it happened.

as for the teachers, thank you so much to them. especially dear mr png and dvt. i just hugged them like i did to my friends, like i'll never get to see them again. hm they assured me we'll meet again, yea :D

time passes so quickly. from little boys now we're going on to jc le. dunno listen to graduation for how many times le and was looking through the photos just now. i looked bad lor with the red nose. but these photos really rock. these memories will remain with me for life.

yes we'll still meet in jc, still can go soccer, pool... but the feeling wouldn't be the same anymore. it probably won't be feel like the 4i gang now that plays around here and there, get scolded here and there, or even leave something on bus so chase it all the way to interchange and almost die of breathlessness after that...

in other words we're special. new friends in jc or anywhere can never give a similar feeling like you all gave me. i'll really miss all of you. jia you for higher chinese o levels =)

ok i shall stop before my eyes water again. stupid eyes that betray me. what a joke, that i always say how i dislike my class, yet tear when we're finally leaving.

2006-10-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

oh man. liverpool was disappointing. or did my high hopes disappoint me. nah. if they will win they will. maybe i shouldn't expect too much from other people too. things that are meant for me will be mine. no need to do anything. lol sounds kind of irresponsible.

tmr we're graduating, then in another few days we'll be on different tracks. dunno whether i'm doing the correct thing now. i'm trying not to be that close to my best friends? like that at least i can mentally prepare myself after we part. i read some chinese stuff before that said something like what beauty doesn't last forever. ah crap but i guess so. i'm fatalistic. i think if friends are fated to meet they won't need school.

i just realised i'm easily jealous though i don't appear to be. omg like a female -_- when you're jealous it's because you want to have something you don't that another person has. you want to have it. alright let me just be contented with what i have.

hm this post is rather nonsensical. hai going to sleep le damn tired. spent the whole afternoon making some posters/banners for my cousin in project superstar. actually, i'm artistic xD

2006-10-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

NE quiz is so fun i want to play again! haiya should have built airport and harbour first but i go anyhow build the temples then no money le. and they cannot be demolished! ahhh if not can get some money to complete stadium. but nvm i'm expert heh

i'm so tired now zz. now everyday is only chinese lessons and co. feeling quite happy though.

it was a marking day yesterday so i slept late and was the only one at home. the phone rang at 8am for like a minute before i got up to pick it up?

i thought whoever is calling must be so smart to call at such a time. and even smarter to not hang up the phone after no one has picked it up for like a minute.

just as i was going to pick it up. IT STOPPED RINGING -_- and when i started to sleep again IT RANG AGAIN.

i was going to scream into the phone but the speaker was faster.

mr tan: good morning dennis!
me: ya who're you?
mr tan: i'm mr tan. sorry to disturb your sleep...
me: nvm it's ok
and he went on...
mr tan: ok?
me: huh. wait. you're which mr tan?
mr tan: you cannot recognise my voice meh?
me: orh you're mr tan? sorry i still sleeping!
so he repeated everything...
mr tan: send me in an hour's time ok?
me: ok lor.

and i went back to sleep. when i woke up it was like 11 LOL. ok now i can only hope i get something :)

oO my testimonial looks quite humble. or no. just that i've no achievements. aw.

and i've re-acquired the habit of biting fingernails.

2006-10-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

not going to blog about results. i'm content =)

i'm convinced today that mr png is the best teacher i've ever met so far in my life. really hope he doesn't feel bad now.

time to do some reflections after so much in secondary school life.

but not in blog la duh xD

2006-10-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

did the hk conductor said something good about my section. LOL right. he must be deaf or what. since when were we good with me. i think limyi would have done a better job than me -_- after all he higher grade than me.

everyday co now. concert's coming really soon and we're so not ready. hm. but there're are only about 900 tickets. 650 are reserved as complimentary tickets and for the sec 1s. i guess if everyone gets their family to come watch then other people won't get to see us malu already xD well. let me treasure the last few days in high school co provided i can promote. damn scary la so many people did badly for chem. went to the open house talk and realised that chem is almost everything of the sciences. zz don't want to get back results. the first paper to get back just so happens to be ihc. think i'll fail ):

testimonial writing?! i have nothing positive to write about myself -_-

2006-10-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

exams are over. i don't suppose i'll do well. but for now let me just play and sleep all i want.

heh tmr hcjc open house. and co resumes. i think i forgot how to play erhu already.

my blog stop hibernating already. will change picture if i find one i like. TAG TAG! xD

2006-09-30T02:26:00.000+08:00

doing physics can sure keep me awake and thinking. even more effective than drinking coffee.

Zz i thought it lessons at home can have more time to study in the end even more stuff to do. hai. today's the last day of lessons before eoys. revision not very effective but gd luck dennis and everyone (:

it's been quite a long time since i talked to a good friend. but after today i think i can concentrate better le. got back physics test and surprisingly i didn't fail. i didn't know error carry forward can still get full marks one. maybe marking was lenient since the test was hard. otherwise i would have failed cos apparently i got the first part of ALL the structured questions wrong. and i think i have some problems now. don't be deceived by my score. all my mcq that're correct are guessed and all those that i know are wrong -_-

and i never get smrp certificate! so strange la only one member of our group got it while other groups everyone have. we got A though xD

2/10 ~~English 1/2~~
3/10 ~~Biology 1/2~~
4/10 ~~Chemistry 1/2~~
5/10 ~~Physics 1/2~~
6/10 ~~Higher Chinese 2, Social Studies~~

6/10: Zz. i was damn scared before the papers today because i've never completed them on time before. as usual, today. but not only i didn't finish, i think i got everything wrong. sigh. feel that i've let myself and some people down ):

anyway played with some candles and lanterns just now with my cousins. you know, i think candles are really something great. in its short lifetime it is able to bring happiness and light to us and chase away the darkness.

that flame is not as easy to be blown out as you think. a gust of wind comes and you see the flame seemingly going to be extinguished. but no. when the wind's past it burns even brighter. if they're extinguished, there'll always be other candles ready to lend them a fire.

today's moon is really nice. looking at it really makes me forget everything.

yawn. what a haze. the medicine is making me feel drowsy. its so bad here in singapore already. can't imagine what's it like in indonesia. humans. hai. for money they can do anything at the expense of everyone's health.

going to sleep. i guess its gg to my coming papers already.

8/10 xD

8/10: birthday spent mugging. uh for dunno how many years already. but thank you all (:

9/10 ~~Maths 1, English Literature~~

9/10: Maths was ok i guess. though what i studied never come out. Was in birthday mood and slacked yesterday. until at night then start studying and mugged like until 4am? matrices, permutation combination, binomial theorem NOT EVEN ONE QUESTION )): and those like probability i never study come out. but i think i did ok la probability is common sense xD

samuel lim during ihe was invigilating then he chao funny la. the seating part was very disorganised la. some people taking econs are expected to take the geog paper LOL. should have seen their expression. it was like totally devastated. mug for econs then must take geog paper because the list print their names wrongly on geog and got no extra econs paper. then he said lit was open book and gave me false happiness. in the end he only referring to intertext.

and he started the exam without giving us fullscap paper -_- uh but lit was bad? i was only prepared for maths then for the last 30 minutes pia lit. think i was too tired. only managed to write about 2.25 sides? that's seriously damn little for 1 hour. heck. last semester the macbeth exam i also only wrote 2.5 sides still get A1. but this time i don't think i wrote as well. and last time i was asked to write more in the remarks -_-

whew last day of mugging. anymore and i think i'll seriously die. got people everyday play game never sleep then suddenly die. then this period i everyday just take a nap before going to school. omg zz. ok gotta mug maths. tmr all the matrices, permutation combination and binomial theorem qns should come out.

went to kap with js and my just now. i said i would be at the top of the world after tmr. then they say they also very happy and was calculating how many A1s they can get. or rather, the actual score they can get because A1 too easy for them to get alr zz. i haven't finished that i would be at the top of the world preparing to jump down when we get back results -_-

Oo i got myself a job during the holidays xD longer hours but better than lrt or tuition or anything i guess.

10/10 ~~Maths 2~~

10/10: some dunno but i guess overall maths was quite ok la. after maths slacked the whole day with junshyang and co. woa. haven't enjoyed myself so much since dunno how long already. played some pool wa they all chao pro la. somehow the last solid 8 always left for me then chao exciting la cos if i don't get it in we'll lose. hah got one time i got it in but after that the white ball rolled slowly towards the hole too then everyone was like holding their breath. in the end it rolled in >< and then the next game also. but this time i kept laughing when i could end the game and i completely missed the solid 8. gave them free ball and they won. oh dear we were leading like siao. then began to try tricks here and there. in the end lose hahahaha.

hm also went lan. maoyang was damn meng la. never play for so long already. LOL one time he chased me to fountain, so i challenged him to fight me then he blink striked in and wow. coup de grace and i died LOL.

got back home and realised that my mother forgot to turn off the fire in the kitchen. i dunno what happened. the whole kitchen smelt burnt and the pot was in pieces. i supposed it exploded. whew thank goodness no one's hurt.

left chinese on thursday. hope i don't slack too much. maybe tmr spend some time reading through some essays. nothing much to study. feels like exams are over now xD but i think i'm gonna enjoy these few days before co starts everyday. hai our concert zz. hope we can make it on time. then after co there's higher chinese o levels. and after that my work starts. LOL 2 months all the way until end of holidays 8 hours every weekday. SO PLAY ALL I CAN NOW xP

12/10 ~~Higher Chinese 1~~
Temporary bliss until checking of results.

jiayou ba.

2006-09-22T19:19:00.000+08:00

for pictures of rat dissection(not for the light-hearted), sxxdotsxx.blogspot.com

physics test was hard and i was SUPER careless. read ALOT of qns wrong -__-

think i'm gonna fail la. i'm like very sad now. i shouldn't even be gettting a B for physics. but then that day i was super sad and couldn't really study well.

i'm rather scared now cos chunmeng is always confusing me. like before the physics test he will joke around and tell me wrong formulas like v = ma x change in temperature. or F = u + 1/2at. also like when i ask him about alkenes he will tell me about maternal blood space -__- hai and i've been fumbling the tests just before the exams. probably cos i'm not happy la :(

but failing now better than failing physics exam. i think i've been quite complacent and careless lately. so it's a good thing actually.

gotta mug even harder. if not cannot even promote! and i wanna take 4 H2s. H1 no challenge. think i shouldn't think about the sad stuff anymore and concentrate on studying.

i'm laughing like mad now cos a friend just told me a joke. HAHAHAHAHAHA so cold la xD

From now till after eoys:
1. I won't reply any smses. Try me =)
2. You won't see me online anymore except on IT emergency day.
3. No more dota/lan. Don't try me i've long uninstalled them!
4. My blog will hibernate for 2 weeks. NOT dead ok!
5. NO MORE EPL ):
6. No more story books/comics/tv.
7. Won't reply to letters as well xD
8. No more erhu for now. Only sleep, eat, mug, sleep.
9. Mug and still mug.
10. NO BIRTHDAY -sobs-

therefore dennis is non-existent for the next 2 weeks!
i think i'll still be tempted by epl. but fortunately liverpool's matches are early :)
its hard though. but i'll try to abide the above mentioned! i think i can do it la. jia you!

and jia you to everyone in advance! xD

be cool.
no stress, just do your best (:

LOL as if -_-

2006-09-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

o_O saw rat dissection today. seeing is enough to convince me not to take bio anymore next year.

i didn't dissect it because it was so cruel la. we had to nail the limbs and cut. and to think my classmates enjoyed playing with its intestines. some even skinned the rat, cut off the tail and beheaded it -_____- and i could see from their sadistic faces how eager they were.

poor little lab mice. so white and cute. i can like see the sadness in their eyes even when they're already in paradise. they were actually bred just to be killed and dissected by us. Zz.

anyway. chem test was rather challenging ~~but i can't believe this. some people actually CHEATED ><~~

exams in a less than 2 weeks. mug!

2006-09-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

to my horror i was told that remainder factor theorem/transformations and whatever topics that i studied for maths will NOT be tested in eoys.

oh man. WHY. i feel dumb.
RAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i never found someone who i could trust. so i learnt to depend on myself

2006-09-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

to one i would type: haha.
to another i type the same thing as well.

yet who can distinguish a true 'haha' from the two. who would expect a sweet-looking apple to be poisoned. who knows if someone is swearing at you inside with that deceitful smile on his face. maoyang said i'm scary because i hide feelings under a mask of happiness.

maybe you can understand this. a chameleon is forced to change its colour to blend with the surroundings, so as to escape from people. it is afraid of them. it knows how humans would feed mice with nuts that are poisoned, or how they would use a bait to lure a hungry fish to doom.

日久见人心. how true. people flock to you when there's success. leave even faster when there isn't. and to achieve what they want, they can resort to whatever means possible even if they know they shouldn't do so. i've been keeping a list of people who i should write to after eoys. on the times had, the bonds forged. and this list only got shorter.

the definition of a friend. someone you know, love and trust. sometimes i wonder if i'm happy to finally be freed from 4I, though some real buddies will be missed. like an orchestra, a note played off-tune covers up the rest, not the other way round. but i'm really glad to have some friends that are always there for me. life isn't beautiful with hypocrites, but these friends are the reasons that kept me going. and it is to these friends that my smiles are sincere.

nevertheless 2 years with 4I is what we call fate. i wonder why i'm in 4I when my results were so lousy then. surely i know that if i were in a less competitive class there would be less hypocrites. but we were brought together and soon we'll all be on different tracks. big or small, good or not, everyone has made an impact in my life.

4I jiayou for eoys. i'm dead serious. since its only the results that matter.

i know. selfless is foolish. am i not self-centred? i am human. i harbour selfish thoughts, but i don't embody them in my actions.

2006-09-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

was waiting for 67 when this guy on a motorcycle drove to me and got me to some corner. he said he is a malaysian and he lost his wallet. then he said "gei3 wo3 $10 hui3 jia1"

i was like huh, is that how you ask money from people? -__- do i look like i'm very rich. then i paused a while in deep thought, trying to analyse whether his story is true. he actually interrupted my thoughts and said "gei3 wo3 la". oh man who does he think he is. i thought i would be dumb to give him $10 even if i have. i don't think go malaysia need so much one lor. so i nicely said i had no money and kindly suggested him to report his loss of wallet to the police.

still he didn't want to let me leave and i started to get nervous. ah then i saw this jc guy and gestured to him. wa he came and somehow the guy drove away la. woa saved me leh. had a nice chat with him also before he left xD

not my first time. last time there was also this woman who asked money from me too. but at least that women wasn't as rude as the guy la, speak like i owe him money like that. hai. please la i'm poor. $10 is like too much for me la -__-

but if he wasn't lying to me then poor thing ><

today in school. eh got nyaa silver xD um spa 4 was ok la, considering i didn't study much. i wouldn't even have studied if msn wasn't down. and wow. sikai best brain go write titration when the instructions clearly stated otherwise.

O.o stanley asked me whether i wore braces before. hahaha dunno how many people ask before le. i never wore braces! heh i'm blessed with nice teeth xD

i realised that exams start on week 4. not 3. YAY one more week for me to start studying. i'll really die if its on week 3 la, so much stuff to cover. must really study hard le. i'm really very slow.

but how nice. my day falls on exams as usual now that they are on week 4. RAHHHHHHHH